Generation Gap

Just heard sth from my dad just now and had some opinions so I want to faster blog before it gets swallowed up by my self-bubble again.  He told me someone committed suicide by plunging down a HDB block at the new neighbourhood behind my house this morning. It was during his supermarket trip with my mum where he saw a commotion with the police involved. So being kapo he asked an auntie beside him and she said a student committed suicide. Don’t know whether was it true anot but nth is on the paper yet.    

So my immediate reaction was, oh dear, that sucks, so saddening, damn poor thing. And it wasn’t soon until my realistic-self came in and I was like, that was his/her choice. Shit I think I am damn mean and I will have karma!!! So sorry for this: / but before my thoughts got back on track my dad added. 

“All the students nowadays are too extreme and self-centered, can’t take in a single thing adults tell them and only care about themselves.”

After I heard this, I got annoyed and said sth sarcastic like “ya it’s entirely the student’s fault”. And u know what he said? “Of course, adults are always right”. I got pissed, rolled my eyes and walked away. First of all I know this is a very bad and evil thing that u sldnt do to ur dad. But I think he is being damn ridiculous, ignorant and stubborn. And I didn’t bothered to reply as I know I will never win against him with all his ‘adults are always right’ shit. I don’t know whether this is true but my dad gave me the impression that all parents his age are so stubborn and not a single bit understand and sympathetic to youth nowadays. So to remain sane I chose to escape the scene and think more into the matter while I bathe.

First of all, I really have no idea why he chose to commit suicide, maybe is because of stress from school, a failed relationship, being bullied or bad families ties. I really have no idea and I don’t want to guess. But imagine what sort of turmoil and pain that was donned onto him that he made such a decision to end his life by plunging down a tall building.  And what my dad only said was that all kids nowadays only care about him and himself only and never listen to what is told by adults. It is just unfair to make such statement. Okay I am not a parent yet so maybe I won’t be able to feel like him; maybe he feels that all kids owe their parents their lives. I totally agree with him on this as I firmly believe that we get our lives from our parents and a part of it belongs to them which is the reason why I chose to be responsible of taking good care of myself as it is like taking care of my parents as well as they don’t have to worry about us. But saying all these before the true story surface is just so shallow and so unreasonable. What if he tried to talk to his parents but they ignored him or when he tried to get help he couldn’t reach anyone? I don’t know why I am so worked up over this maybe is just because of my annoying dad -.- but I sincerely hope and pray for the victim to rest in peace and hope that he is in a happier place now. 

Secondly, I feel damn disturbed by what my dad said ‘Adults are always right’. I had 2 reactions in my head, first was to roll on the floor and laugh my head and butt off and the latter is to scream at my dad. This is just so stupid. This is just purely a one sided opinion and who is the extreme one here! Yes I agree that adults have more experience and most is more mature with the flow of life. MOST. And I am sure that there’s still some out there with the most childish mindset ever and are burdens to the society. I will be an adult one day and being 21 maybe I already am, and I will never enforce my opinions on anybody, maybe my children next time but I will be an understanding parent who are always there for my children and I will definitely not tell them any absolute view of mine as when they grows older they will experience it themselves. In my dad’s eyes I am always that stubborn daughter of his who always doesn’t listen to wats being told, always doing things her way even though it is the harder way. Yes, I may be independent and dominating but it is not true that I disagree with them every time. Some kids defy their parents for the sake of defying. But for my case I just chose wat to listen that’s all, I want to be independent and make choices on my own and even if it’s wrong, I will learned my mistakes the hard way, I won’t have any grumbles as I chose it myself. I chose to do sth for a reason, and to those who know me I am sure u know that I am that serious, sensible and responsible when I make impt decisions, it’s just that when I made those decisions I didn’t communicate with my parents properly ,telling them why I chose that as I believe they confirm will drag it down and force me to do their way. Okay I think I sound like some spoiled brat that’s throwing tantrums because I didn’t get the latest item on my wish list. NO I am not. I sincerely thank my parents for giving the type of life I have now, getting whatever that I want without fail ( I am always  reasonable on this) but guess it’s really the time to take back that protective net that they have cast long ago for I am an adult now. I feel that no matter wat I did even it’s a small thing it’s wrong to them. For example, my dad will scold mi for leaving rubbish in the cute little dustbin in my room of I leave it overnight, saying I will kanna some virus I f I don’t empty them. Hello, wat can that small dustbin contain? Stale food and unwanted shoes?!  Okay okay I shall not drone on and on, I am just upset that my dad has this stupid mentality and he just doesn’t understand. Fine I might be at fault at this as I didn’t talk to him about it; I just do my own things at home, my little bubble, remember?

Okay lastly, he mentioned “kids are all self-centered and extreme nowadays”. *takes in deep breath* SERIOUSLY? So he meant I am like that to him? Dafuq seriously. Again, what the hell is with this one sided opinion of his! Same as me, my dad is a stubborn uncle who refused to change his thinking once sth set in his mind. Yes, unreasonable and not understanding at all! This might sound like another post of a raging teenager complaining about how good her life is to u, but I don’t care I am gonna say wats in my mind. NOT ALL YOUNGSTERS ARE LIKE THAT. I agree there are some ppl who are pain in the arse and do all sorts of childish and dumb things to make my dad think this way. We all had trouble figuring sth out during our teenage years and those are ppl who went full force into it and didn’t figure anyth out -.-  BURNNNNNNN okay rage mood on. Okay fine, maybe they didn’t get any help or sth impactful happened which made them this way.  Now, back to the topic, *takes in deep breath* I really do believe faithfully that not all kids are like that. And before my dad even made that statement, does he know the stress and temptations that this generation is going through? All he is thinking is all kids sld grow up both mental and physically healthy while listening to wat their parents tell them to do. Fine wat parents told us to do might eventually lead to success but is that the best we want or the best we can achieve? Again I am not a parent yet so I don’t understand, I know that all parents want their child to be the best but most of the time neglecting his happiness, especially Asians. BURNNNNNNN. I don’t know how to show my dad that not all kids are like that and such mentality is damn pathetic and hope extinguishing. Those are only minorities, u don’t see any troubled teens jumping off buildings everyday due to stupid reasons do u? Times are different and society is different now, u can’t use the same way to teach kids long long ago and apply to kids nowadays, it doesn’t work. And u simply can’t compare yourself to youth now on the ways that u are being brought up and taught in school as the difference is just too huge. Or maybe it’s partially my fault again for not communicating with him the stress and the obstacles I been through.  Again I am just upset by my dad’s thinking, such unreasonable and when I argue he refused to listen, thinking all thinking from kids is craps. 

Sorry guys for raging, I feel so much better now, u might feel different about anyth I have said, please don’t judge and please keep ur opinion to yourself. I am not some gothic who leads an extreme life screaming and crying with black tears from smeared mascara rolling down my fat cheeks complaining “NO ONE UNDERSTAND ME”. NO, never. I know that this kind of conflict with family can be solved and I love my dad okay and I know why he is behaving this way, being over protective because he cares and loves me more than anybody on this earth.

heres a potato!